JOanna’s Life

Never log in Friendster for a really long time, then only i realise my last post was in 2006 *sigh*

Just added a friend, saw one of her post, trigger some hidden feelings inside of me, that was buried deep down in my heart…

She’s a friend, my primary school friends, same secondary school too, same hometown of course, we were not really close as good friend, but we knew each other by name, once as close friend too but due to some change of class etc, we were not that close anymore. But we would still say hi and bye when we met each other in school, friend as you can say, but never really talk nor communicate with each other… Friends? I suppose, a hi-bye kind.

After a few year of graduating fr my sec.school, now she added me in friendster, a mixed feelings just aroused inside of me. Although we were just hi-bye friends, i can still see her (of cos, it applies to all the other friends), knowing her presence, all my friend presence. Now, studying in a foreign land, though not that far, yet i feel lonely, missing my school days. With friends hanging around me, always, busy with all things, school works, interact clubs, tuitions after tuitions, yet finding time to do the things i enjoy, playing sports, going to friend’s party or just hanging out "yum cha". Oh My…How long have i not use the word "yum cha" in Singapore…

My life now is so different, with so little time of my own. "I Need a Breather!!!" sometimes my innerself will scream, yet things remain the same. Tried to change. But cannot break free fr the commitment in some Co-Q im already in. I have enough of this kind of life…Non-stop hussle and bussle of life. But i think this is the consequence of the road i have chosen. Bearing the responsibility. Sometimes i do enjoy this kind of life, though is not a life that’s under the limelight, yet it still look glam. Glamorous ? It may seems…But the struggle with the responsibility is something you can’t avoid. I have chosen the road,I will have to finish the journey.

Friends come and go, but the one that leaves a footstep along the journey, do you still remember? Treasure the friends, your love ones all around you, express your love to them, not to be stingy with words of encouragement, affection or even just a simple hello or an sms. You never know when a little action of kindness can touch a person’s life. Let them know of their presence counts.

Miss you my friends…

Miss my life in STABK…

Miss my carefree life…

Things will be better. Even when i feel like not to grow up, getting more independent and more responsible in every action i take. But as time passes by, face it. You cannot stay in the greenhouse provided by your daddy mummy forever. They too will need your care one day. They too will need your provision. They can’t always be the one providing. You can’t always make your parents worry about you.

At a cross-road junction, which way should I go…